Danger! Red Alert! That is a restricted area! One that I promised myself I would never go...Well I'm wearing my bio-hazard suit so perhaps the damage will be minimal.... What if they were all wrong and Leo's prognosis might be better then the they led us to believe? What if after the fluid pressure was relieved there is more brain tissue then the scans showed? What if through all the prayers a miracle happened? Can you imagine being in a place where you are wishing for just some brain damage? Not just wishing, but feeling as if that would be the most FANTASTIC thing ever? Whoa. Anyway, why lately we have been toying gingerly with these thoughts is all because of our sweet, strong boy. He is doing so well. Every week he makes his physical therapist pleased. He interacts, giggles, smiles, and watches us. He plays with his hanging toys and moves his head all around, and even can hold it up a little. I am seriously expecting him to be able to hold it himself once his body is big enough to provide leverage. Every week his head measures smaller, and we are planning on taking him to the "Noggin clinic at Dartmouth for a helmet which will mold the sutures on his head flat. The nurses say that eventually his head will look perfectly normal! And he's so strong and healthy! I remember when I was still pregnant the strong conviction that I had of his strength, the feeling of knowing that I carried a fighter. I never had ANY doubts about him, that's also why when we found out it was such a shock. It never even occurred to me that there might be a problem with the baby. He has a wonderful appetite, nursing and taking a bottle both. His visiting nurses love him to bits and always comment on how "with it" he seems. He hears perfectly and is definitely not blind. He just glows with sweetness and love....I could go on forever! Anyway all this makes Justin and I talk about getting another MRI, or CAT scan done, maybe even at another hospital. He hasn't had a scan after the shunt placement. Who knows? The brain is a huge mystery even the neurologists admit that. Oh but what if???? And on the other hand, if he is doing so incredibly well, making us fall in love with him so completely who cares what's in his head? As long as he lives, who cares! Just stay with us boy, for a very long time. Here's a clip of a peaceful morning with our little hero. As always thank you all for your love, prayers, and comments!